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Getting past the pain- Part 8
Bo
looked at Nora, who looked as if she was going to pass out and he knew exactly what was going on with her.
Bo: Nora,
it's ok. If you don't want to do this you don't have to. We can simply live together if you'd be more comfortable.
Nora
gave him a forced smile before continuing.
Nora: Bo, you don't understand. It dosn't matter if we get married or live
together. I will always be afraid.
He walked over to where she was standing and took her hand.
Bo: Do you
trust me?
Nora: You know I do.
Bo: Then will you let me help you with this? Will you let me be your friend
right now?
Nora: Yeah. Turns out your exactly what I need.
Bo: Good. So lets go.
He took her hand and
led her out the door. He took the letter opener and dusted it of her prints. afterwards he placed it in his safe. She hated
what he was doing but she didn't have the stength to fight him on it. After he was done, they climbed in the back of his truck
and drove, completely forgetting everything going on at home. Eventually they reached a carnival and she lit up with excitement.
Nora: I can't believe you remembered...
Bo: Oh Nora, I remember everything about you. You want to get some
cotton candy?
Nora: Later... right now I just want to( suddenly remembering her condition she lost the color in her
face).
Bo: What? What is it sweetie?
Nora: I... I can't believe I forgot I was pregnant. Now I can't go on
these rides.
Bo: We'll save that for next time ok?
Nora: Promise?
Bo: I promise. ( They looked at
each other with the look of two people in love. Nobody would have guessed it was a ruse.) So tell me Red... You want Cotton
candy or do you want to play some games?
Nora: I want to play skeeball... You up for a challenge?
Bo: I'm always
up for a challenge... what are the stakes?
Nora: Lets see... (Pretends to be thinking) Pretty high stakes Bo. You think
You handle it?
Bo: I haven't heard an offer yet. You're not chickening out are you?
Nora: Me? Never! (Pause)
If I win then you tell me something I want to know.
Bo: Nora... what is there to know... You already know everything
about me.
Nora: Well maybe... but there's always more to be discovered... You and I both know we've changed since
the last time we were together.
Bo: Well that's true... But what if I win...
Nora: You won't win
Bo:
But what If I Do?
Nora: Well you won't... but if you do then...then I'll let you kiss me.
Bo: You will huh?
Nora:
A deals a deal... you game?
Bo: With stakes like that how can I refuse?
After playing a few rounds of high stakes
Skeeball, Nora was winning once again.
Nora: I'll tell you what? Since I'm in a good mood... ( She leaned in and kissed
his cheek, causing him to smile.)
Bo: Do you enjoy this Red?
Nora(Feigning innocence): What?
Bo: Don't
WHAT Me! Why do you always win?
Nora: Practice baby. Practice makes perfect. Haven't you ever got that?
Bo:
Yeah, but I could never grasp the concept. At least not with you.
Nora: Ok ok. I want that Cotton candy.
Bo:
Are you backing out?
Nora: Are you crazy? Games over.
He looked up and saw the big red letters that said winner.
She had beaten the record once again.
Bo: How do you do that?
Nora: that's my secret commish. I'm the one asking
the questions remember?
Bo: Yeah, whatever. Lets get your cotton candy.
After picking up their cotton candy
they sat on the grass and looked up at the stars.
Nora: Have you ever thought about what our life would have been
like if you hadn't went out on that boat?
Bo: Is that your question?
Nora: Yeah. I really want to know if you've
thought about me at all over the years because I can't seem to get it out of my head.
Bo: What?
Nora: You and
Me... Us... I just can't figure out how we let it get so bad before we bailed. And every time I think about what went wrong
it breaks my heart. Because you were everything that mattered to me.
Bo: You were my whole world Nora. I've thought
about everything from our first kiss to the day We said goodbye... And yes... I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't
shut you out. you know what I discovered?
Nora: What?
Bo: That it dosn't matter.
( when she gets a sad
look on her face, he turns her around to face him. )
Bo: Not for the reasons you think Red. It dosn't matter because
it's over. I can't turn back the clock and not go on that boat. Everything that happened that night happened for a reason.
I know we can't see it now but maybe it was for the best.
Nora: How can you say that? We had the most amazing love
story.
Bo: Yeah we did. But I don't want some love story that fizzles out. I want the real thing. I want to be able
to tell our grand kids that we had the kind of love that never dies; that we went through some tough times and still came
out on top. Nora, I want to know that we can make mistakes and find a way to forgive each other. Can you honestly say that
we have that now?
Nora: That's the problem Bo. We don't have anything. I mean we're sitting here planning on getting
married and we're no where near getting back together. This is all for show .
Bo: Exactly. And isn't that the point
Red?
Nora: I don't follow.
Bo: this whole "show" we're putting on has reawakened the very thing we're afraid
to deal with. Our feelings for each other.
Nora: And what might those be?
Bo: Well I don't know about you...
but I think I'm falling for you once again. (When she tried to speak he put his hands up to stop her) Don't say it Nora. Don't
tell me not to love you. It's too late for that.
Nora(Tears in her eyes): You love me? Oh God I never thought I'd
hear that again.
Bo: Well believe me... I never thought I'd say it.
Nora: Do you mean it? I mean your not
just saying it are you? Your not...(He interupts her)
Bo: I love you Nora. The one thing I've realized through this
whole mess is that we don't know how much time we have left. I thought I'd be married to you forever and when we weren't it
almost destroyed me. But I guess in a way you can say it made me stronger.
Nora: I know how you feel. It made me stronger
too. I had to learn to live without my heart.
Bo: Yeah... and I think that's a good thing.
Nora: How so?
Bo:
We've learned to breathe without each other. We've learned how to be independent. For so long our whole life revolved around
each other. Now I'm not saying that's a bad thing because I don't think it is. I'm just saying it's taught me to appreciate
what's really important.
Nora: Which is?
Bo: You. Matthew. The sunset. Long walks like these. Nora, I never
realized how important the little things could be. I was always so consumed with the bigger things. Now I'm just grateful
to be here.
Nora: You know? That's funny. I always thought you WERE consumed by the little things. I guess that shows
how little I really know about the man you are today. I'm sorry for not looking close enough.
Bo: And I'm sorry for
not forgiving you in the first place. I put you so high up on that pedestal... I expected you to be perfect Red... and when
you weren't I was so disoriented that I didn't know what to do. Our marriage started falling apart long before Sam came into
the picture. I need to take my own share of responsibility for that. The problem was that we stopped trusting each other.
There
was a breif pause.
Nora: I never thought I'd hear you admit that. We were never the same after Georgie were we?
Bo:
I think it started before that. If it hadn't, the Gerogie mess never would of happened.
Nora: I guess you're right.
Bo: You know? This feels good. I feel like we've really covered a lot of ground tonight.
Nora: We have. We've
finally been able to be honest with each other. That means we're getting somewhere. (Pause)
Bo: I'm not going to lie
to you Nora. I want you back. But I know that we have some work to do... and I know this is a really bad time... but...
Nora:
Bo, we're getting married. we'll have all the time in the world to work on all of these emotions. I have so much I want to
tell you. So much I think we need to say. But not tonight. Tonight I just want to enjoy being with you. You think you can
handle that?
Bo: Yeah, I think I can. As long as you promise me something?
Nora: What?
Bo: That if
you start feeling uncomfortable you let me know. I just want you to feel safe again red. That's all I want.
Nora:
That's all... ( She gave him THAT look.)
Bo: Well not ALL... But you know what I mean.
Nora: Yes, I do. But
you don't have to worry anymore. I always feel safe with you.
he smiled at her.
Nora: I'll tell you what?
Why don't we go play basket ball and you can see if you can win that little wager we made.
Bo: Nora, you hate basket
ball.
Nora: But YOU love it. Lets go.
Nora watched Bo's face come alive as they played and she was once again
convinced she had made the right choice. After a few rounds it was obvious that Bo had won. He smiled at her.
Bo: You
don't have to do this if your not ready. Believe me I can wait.
Nora: You shouldn't have to. A deals a deal.
She
leans in and kisses him gently on the lips. It does get a little passionate before she has to pull away because she is uncomfortable.
Bo:
Well?
Nora: It felt good Bo. It did.
Bo: But?
Nora: Well I was a little uncomfortable towards the end...please
don't take this the wrong way.
Bo: Your not ready. I get it.
Nora: Thank you. I think we should call it a night.
Bo: If your ready.
A little while later they arrived at the house. he was about to open the door when she
felt a little light headed. She passed out in his arms as he tried to wake her up.
To Be Continued
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