Getting Past
The Pain- Part 6
Bo and Nora looked at each other in shock. after the reality of it all finally sunk in she started
to cry. Bo put his arms around her as she finally allowed her emotions out.
Nora(Through her tears): I can't believe
this is happening. When is it going to be over?
When?
Bo(To the cops): are you happy now? Did you finally
get what you wanted?
Antonio: You think I wanted any of this? I know what kind of man Daniel was.I would love nothing
more than to just let it be.
Bo: Then why can't you? Hasn't she been through enough?
Antonio: You know I can't.
Believe me I...
Nora: If you're going to say you understand what I'm going through then don't. A man can't possibly
understand this kind of agony.
Antonio: Nora I...
Nora: Do you know what it feels like to be uncomfortable
in your own skin? do you understand what it is to relieve that moment in your mind over and over again like it is happening
at that moment? Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy Antonio. I can't breathe. I can't even take my clothes off at night
without having to check and recheck the house to make sure there are no intruders. When I get to the shower I have literally
stood there for a half hour just staring at my bruises. I can't move. And I've never been so incredibly petrified of anything
in my whole life. when I leave the house in the morning, I obsess over whether the doors are locked. I can't go anywhere by
myself anymore. I freak out at the slightest sign of affection. I mean when someone touches me I feel like I'm dying. I close
my eyes and see the images from that night and I want to crawl into a hole and never come out. I carry kitchen knives in my
purse. and at one point I even considered buying a gun. If that makes me guilty then go ahead and arrest me.
Antonio:
I'm sorry Nora. I had no idea how bad it was.
Nora(wiping the tears from her face): you never will Antonio. The things
I go through are very personal. and very hard to put into words. there are moments when I really feel like I'm ok. maybe it's
denial. maybe it's just wishful thinking. maybe it's even true for a moment or two. but then something happens that triggers
a memory from that night and I'm right back to square one. you can't possibly undserstand what my life has become because
you haven't lived it. You're not there to see me come through at the other end.
Antoio: Are you saying that...
Nora:
I refuse to be a victim anymore. I'm a survivor. that's what I'm saying.
Bo(turning to Nora): I always knew you were.
Nora: I know. and I love you for it. you always had so much more faith in me then I ever had in myself. I really don't
know what I'd do without you.
Bo: You're never going to have to find out. I love you too.
He kisses her gently
on the lips and she tries not to tense up. Bo knows right away that she has.
Bo: I'm sorry red. I never should of
done that.
Nora: I'm the one who's sorry. I want you to kiss me. It makes me feel alive. I just...
Bo: You're
not ready. Ok. I get it. you just let me know when you are.
Nora: What if I'm never ready? I don't expect you to wait
forever.
Bo: But I will.
Nora: Why?
Bo: because I love you. Is that so hard to understand?
Nora:
kind of. I'm not exactly perfect. I'm extremely flawed actually.
Bo: Good. So am I. (Pause) honey, I waited for months
before we were finally able to be together openly. Why would I change that now that Gabrielle knows the truth about us?
Nora:
It wasn't suppose to be about love that night Bo. It was sex. and after that you went back to her anyways. that was the plan.
Bo:
but I never stopped thinking of you. how long did it take us to wind up right back where we were?
Nora: A couple days.
Bo:
And we couldn't keep our hands off each other could we?
Nora(Smiling): No. not like we ever could.
Bo: But
this time it was about more wasn't it?
Nora: Yep. It was about making love and not just having Sex.
Bo: Ok.
so even if we can't make love like we did that night, it dosn't mean I'll give up on you. I'd be staisfied with just holding
you.
Nora: No you wouldn't.
Bo: Stop putting words in my mouth. I love you Nora. That will never change.
Nora:
But...
Bo: No... I don't just love you for your body ok... although believe me you've got an amzing body.
she
hit him playfully.
Bo: seriously Nora. I love everything about you.
Nora looked at Antonio.
Nora: Oops.
I forgot that we weren't alone.
Antonio: Obviously. so... you two are back together?
Bo: yep. Gabrielle just
found out we were having an affair and we were finally able to go public.
Antonio: An affair huh? for how long?
Bo:
For a while. long before the rape ever happened. it started when we were trapped together.
Antonio: That was... that
was almost 7 months ago.
Nora: so? we told you it was a while.
Bo: Look Antonio... this is ridiculous. Nora
had nothing to do with Daniels Murder.
Antonio: Does that mean you can prove it?
Bo: she was with me all night
remember...
Antonio: What about the witness?
Bo(pausing): I bet I can guess who it is? It's Gabrielle isn't
it?
Antonio: Why does it matter Bo? you and I both know a witness has to be taken seriously.
Bo: come on Antonio...
she's lying. you get her up on the stand during a trial and they'll poke so many holes in it you won't be able to see straight.
She's bitter because I chose Nora over her.
Antonio: So what do you suggest I do Comishioner? Ignore it?
Bo:
well not ignore it exactly... just concentrate on real evidence. You're looking in the wrong place.
Antonio: Is that
an order or a request?
they stare at each other strangely.
Antonio: You don't see a conflict of interst here?
You're in love with a possible murder suspect. of course you're going to steer the evidence in another direction.
Nora:
Antonio stop it. Bo's a good cop. He would never sacrafice his morals for me. You should know that by now.
Bo(pausing):
Antonio's right. I'm off the case. (he hands him his badge) in fact I'm off the whole force until the case is resolved.
Nora:
What? You're suspending yourself?
Bo: I have to Red.If it came down to it I know that I would sacrafice myself to protect
you. I would do anything to keep you out of prison Red, and I don't trust myself to hold a badge while you're still a suspect.
I would always chose you over the force.
Antonio: you're doing the right thing Bo.
Bo: So what's it going
to be Antonio? Are you going to arrest her or not?
Antonio(pausing): No. Just don't leave town ok? either of you.
after
they were sure he was gone, Nora turned to Bo.
Nora: What the hell was all that talk about being in love? You and I
both know that's not the case. What's going on?
Bo: Honey, we have to make it look real. If we don't, then you are
going to go to prison for a very long time .
Nora: but I didn't do it?
Bo: No. But you're pregnant with his
child. That's a pretty good motive for murder.
Nora(pause): So we have to convince everyone that it's yours? in order
to do that we have to "pretend" to be in love right?
Bo(pausing): Oh honey, I wasn't FAKING any of what I just said
to you.
To Be Continued
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